Sayonara

Being young, busy, and fulfilled made us feel powerful and immortal. We made dreams and live our life trying to achieve it. In the way we made friends, we had fun. We know we have responsibilities but we don't let that block us. WE MOVE FORWARD.

I'm assuming everyone have a best friend.

Sometimes that's the one you work with, or the one goes to the same school with you. Or maybe someone you know from your former office, or someone you met on the way you travel. We met someone we liked and in the same frequencies we had, we immediately connected.

I met Rezy Nourifath Basry in my first days on O Channel.

He was sitting in front of me in the smoking room. We chat a little then I know we were in the same division. We're editors. We chat in daily basis, we learn from each other, then we get to know each other, then we go home together. Then we eat together, then we become inseparable except when we work because we had different editing suites. Of course we had another friends along the way but they're not the focus here.

We shared our stories through the night on the 7th floor of the building. Our dreams, our thoughts, our jokes. We began to ask each other's opinion and taken those into thoughts. 

Life happens, he got cut from the office with about 40 or so other employees. He find another office and I stayed. We chat occasionally over the phone or text. Just like an old friend.

Then destiny put us into the same office again. I saw him every weekdays, and just like the old days, we become a close friend again.

Life continues to happen. He got married. Oh on his ugly days I happen to see him cried begging me to accompany him, just so he wasn't alone. We're,... best friend. 

I'm gonna bitching him reminded him not to do what he wasn't suppose to do, he, being he was, not taking any damn care of my life unless I ask his opinion.

We were there on the office's basement chatting. He told me he was boring. I told him if I get bored, I'll travel. Do what makes you happy, and I asked him what made him happy.

He said nothing.

Nothing in this world would make him happy. 

'Aneh lu,' I said. And after a couple of words he said 'Mungkin gue bisa bahagia kalo gue udah punya anak kali ya com. Gak sabar gue, ih!'

Then he had a baby. 

Everything was on the track. 

Then he was complaining about his back. Then his flu. Then he complained about his headache. Nothing big really happened. One Friday me and him going to Health Ministry for an offline preview. 

On the weekend he said he got opnamed for thypus. "Tolong bilang Jay." He said.

His hospital is quite far so I didn't go see him. He'll get well, I thought.

The next Friday my friend got really noisy, saying Rezy was being opname in the hospital for Meningitis.

And he can't remember anything.

Cannot. Remember. A. Damn. Thing.

I was in shock I cried. The next day I go see him. He was better cause he remembers me, but surely, not that better.

We were hoping he'll get better. And he gotten better.

One day, the news is Rezy's on ICU. Comma. For a TBC. In the morning he was in dangerous states the doctor told his family to gather and saying goodbyes cause he ahad low blood pressure.

But it kept raising. So when I was see him, I whisper "Sembuh lo, gue nggak mau dateng kalo lo lewat" I was really, really sure he'll get better. I was hoping so.

But fate disagree.

Yesterday, he was gone to Allah. I was shock, I don't believe it. This is someone you met EVERYDAY. You work with EVERYDAY.

We even have the chats "what if we grow old,..."

And now he's gone.

I love him, he's a good friend, and a good person. I hope he's in a better place and, I really hope he is happy. Cause nothing in this world truly makes him happy. 

So long, com.

Bekerja Dengan Hati

Pagi di Jakarta. Shelter TransJakarta ramai, penuh berdesakan. Terkadang harus bersisian dengan mbak-mbak atau mas-mas yang oversweat dan kalau lagi sial malah (maaf) bau ketek. Ketika Bus yang ditunggu datang, lalu dorong-dorongan penuh semangat nggak peduli bus yang ingin dinaiki sudah bejubel isinya. Semua demi datang ke kantor tepat waktu. 

Sejak Senin kemarin, jam masuk di kantor saya maju menjadi jam 08.30. Aduh sekali. Masalahnya, rumah saya di Cawang dan kantor saya di Pluit. Pluit itu semacam ujung Jakarta lah. Kalau jalanan lancar, sebenarnya bisa ditempuh hanya dengan setengah jam saja naik mobil. Masalahnya, kapan Jakarta lancar kalo bukan pas lebaran? Lalu, demi tepat waktu, saya harus berangkat dari rumah jam 06.00 dan bangun jam 05.00. Yap, sementara dulu-dulu jam segini saya baru pulang sidejoban.

Kemarin-kemarin saya agak kurang peduli dengan jam masuk, karena pekerjaan saya selalu beres. Tapi, dipaksa keadaan, saya HARUS peduli. Maka saya merelakan kantor me'rampas' diri saya, yang lebih milih disuruh begadang daripada bangun pagi. Yang lebih berorientasi kepada hasil dibanding cara. 

Yang melakukan pekerjaannya dengan hati. 

Karena terpaksa berangkat pagi, maka saya lalu mengobservasi mereka-mereka yang berjubelan bersama saya. Tanpa ekspresi di wajah, tanpa peduli keadaan sekeliling, yang penting sampai kantor. Biar nggak telat. Demi kantor. 

Benci sekali saya menjadi bagian dari orang-orang yang begitu. 

Dulu saya pernah bicara kepada diri sendiri, bahwa saya nggak akan berhenti menjadi lebih baik dalam editing. Bahwa ini cinta, bukan hanya cara biar saya punya uang untuk makan. Bahwa saya mau terus belajar dan tidak akan menjadi robot. Lalu blar, seperti biasa kenyataan punya caranya sendiri buat ngegampar, karena sekarang saya menjadi orang yang, ugh. Seperti itu.

Saya punya semua keluhan untuk kantor saya sekarang, kecuali dua : gaji yang lumayan dan teman-teman yang sulit ditinggalkan. Itu saja, boro-boro improve skill. Malah part time job saya memberi lebih banyak pelajaran baru. Bukan tanpa keluhan, tapi jelas lebih membuat saya puas hati sebagai individu yang merasa mau lebih banyak belajar. 

Kenapa nggak resign saja? Memang terlintas di pikiran saya untuk freelance sajalah selagi belum dapat kerjaan. Tapi financial plan tentu bakal berubah banyak. Memang sih rejeki nggak kemana, tapi entah kenapa saya sejak dulu bukan tipe orang yang suka ambil resiko dalam keuangan dan pekerjaan. Nggak bakat bisnis, berarti :p

Entahlah. Currently looking for a new job, maybe i'll just browse the internet.

Doakan saja, ya.

I dont wanna be a robot. I'd rather be a zombie. 

Taking Care Of Yourself

I used to be careless of my appearance. My looks, my skin, my health, anything that concerns me. I believed what's matter is what's inside, not how you look. 

I've changed.

See, since I become the admin of www.olivia-jensen.com, I HAVE TO understand what message she's trying to deliver to her readers. Her concerns are beauty and fashion. We discuss things related to it. And gee, this girl know so much about it, and I don't even know my skin type. 

Hahaha.

Maybe because of that, I became more self aware. Now I use sheet mask, do facial, using sleep mask, and WASH MY FACE (oh, i'm so lazy I don't wash my face before I go to bed. I'M THAT LAZY). I buy colorful clothes (normally I used safe color : black, blue, grey, brown, or white sometimes).

That actually feel good. 

When you feel better about yourself, somehow you feel more beautiful.

^ ^

The Twenty-sixth

Hello!

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I choose to refuse that today is my twenty-sixth birthday! Oh-So-Nooooo!!! :'( Not that I don't feel grateful to God, you know, being alive well and happy and all, but, twenty-six is somehow,... closer.

To thirty.

*sob*

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Compared to last year, I think I grow up more. Being with this not-so-new-anymore boyfriend brought me another knowledge and experience, socially and psychologically. Him, I think, is my best gift from last year. And, NO. I'm not gonna married anytime soon at this year. Hopefully next year I'll be able to AT LEAST plan it so I'll be able to write about it. *finger cross*

The journey from this second, last year, has been,... PRICELESS.

I travel more.
Laugh more, cried less.
Learn more, worry less.

Every year on your birthday, you get a chance to start new.

-Sammy Hagar-

 
Let's start a new, a better new, shall we? Do sport, less side jobs. Start saving, less spending. Learn, Love and Live.

Thank You, Allah! Alhamdulillah! :)

Travel the traveller

I have found out that there ain't no surer way to find out whether you like people or hate them than to travel with them. - Mark Twain

So I found mine, a companion in travel, in live and in love. The more  I travel with you, the more I love you. Stays the way you are. The way you protect me, the way you made me laugh. The way you made me upset, the way you're the only helping hand. 

So me and him plan to made a little business, a trip organizer, an idea that popped up in our heads when we laughing crazily in the Cipularang traffic jam. We plan the name, then the logo, and then, the survey day. This is our first destination : Pulau Seribu. We chose this place because it's the nearest beaches from Jakarta. Hopefully, we also will make Karimun Jawa, Jogjakarta, Bromo and Bali our 'Days Off' destinations. 

This is the photos from our first survey :

We went visit 4 island in Pulau Seribu : Pulau Pramuka, Pulau Semak Daun, Pulau Payung and Pulau Tidung. We brought out friends : Mas Narco as the photographer, and Ici and Nisa as the princesses... um, models. 

Cannot not laugh seeing the face of my boyfie here,...

looks like a little boy afraid of something. Oh my, he's not afraid to

start a fight but afraid of a turtle! Haha!!

He's a good swimmer. VERY good. You know what I love? He can protect me in the middle 

of the sea. Umh, I almost always using life vest :))))

Another sunset we catch!!

Playing guitar in midnight. :)

Sadly I'm too tired and busy with my complicated mind

to join them.

I guess this is the last beach I visit this year. Not that I don't love it, but my skin haven't even go back to its normal color from the Karimun Jawa - Jogja trip. I don't want it to be darker, so I guess Boyfie's gonna go survey to another destinations alone - and I know he's gonna love it. 

But I know he'll travel with me, along the way. Everyday.

Jogjakarta, A New Year Eve Trip

It was so hot in Borobudur. 

Oyeee, this is also my first time to visit Borobudur. Haha. It was so crowded there I could barely had an experience ._.

Prambanan. Di jalan menuju ke sini, ada temen bilang via twitter kalo pacaran kesini nanti putus. Secara di trip ini ada dua pasangan,... hahahha. Dandy dan Shanaz cuek-cuek aja. Saya dan pacar memutuskan untuk putus dulu sebelum masuk ke dalem. Sekitar,... sepuluh detik kemudian dia minta balikan. Hahahaha.

Dinner di Malioboro. Ati2 deh kalo makan disana, karena harganya rada mahal untuk ukuran makanan lesehan pinggir jalan.

Happy New Year All!!

Save more. Spend less. And NOT vice versa.

So, 2013 came. We survived the apocalypse because it never happened.

People cheered and made resolutions. 

I made commitment.

Saya udah janji sama diri sendiri untuk mulai menabung awal tahun ini, dan seiring dengan janji itu, yang pertama saya lakukan adalah konsultasi sama seorang teman yang sungguh hebat dalam mengelola keuangan pribadi (dan keluarga, karena dia sudah nikah). Dia bilang :

Pertama-tama, list dulu pengeluaran tetap dalam sebulan.

Tadinya saya cengar-cengir mendengar ini karena sudah yakin banget kalau pengeluaran tetap saya sebenernya kecil, cuma perintilannya yang bikin boros. Jalan dikit ke mol nongkrong di Starbucks. Tau dong harga satu cup Green Tea Frappucino berapa? Ya biasa aja sih kalo sekali sebulan, cuma saya aja nggak tau berapa kali saya ke Starbucks saking casualnya kebiasaan ini. Itu baru Starbucks. Belom kaos-kaos lucu di Bershka atau New Look. Apalagi kalo tiba-tiba kepingin Sushi Tei.

Ternyata setelah di list, pengeluaran tetap saya per bulan bikin saya kesal sekali. Saya cuma ngitung pengeluaran standar macam transport, makan, pulsa dan teman-temannya. Ternyata itu aja udah cukup besar,... apalagi ditambah kebiasaan saya nyomot apapun yang SAYA RASA butuh padahal sebetulnya nggak perlu-perlu amat. Pemikiran saya yang "I work hard, I deserve this" juga sepertinya harus diupgrade karena udah nggak jaman. Udah kebanyakan manjain diri sendiri, lupa masa depan.

Mulai bikin Tabungan Rencana

Ini udah lamaaaaaak banget pengen saya lakuin, tapi seperti diet, "Let's Start Tomorrow" adalah motto saya kemaren-kemaren. Temen saya bilang, harusnya saya bisa nabung sepertiga dari pemasukan saya. Maka harus diitung baek-baek setelah tau pengeluaran tetap dalam sebulan, supaya nggak keteteran bayarnya. Uhm. Masih nggak rela sih, tapi harus dilakukan.

Tabung Sisa Pengeluaran Tetap

Jadi ya, menurut temen saya, pengeluaran tetap yang sudah di list dan di budget itu, harus dijaga kaya ngejagain renderan, dan nggak boleh sampe overbudget. Kalo ada sisanya, DITABUNG LAGI. Nggak ada ceritanya foya-foyain sisanya di akhir bulan karena,...  LO KAN LAGI NABUNG??

Ih.

Ternyata menabung itu susah sekali ya.

Temen saya matanya sampe melotot begitu saya bilang pendapatan tetap perbulan saya, lalu ngegoblog-goblogin karena nggak punya tabungan sama sekali selama ini.

Ya maap deh.

Better late than never, rite?